Anita:

There has been developments since this morning and now...
but first, I forgot to also thank you guys for praying for me as a cell with my job...it's really a blessing that i got it. There were so many variables and it was my lifeline but i am so thankful for it. God is really awesome!!

...there is also something else...Johnson's dad, Mr. Oen passed away this morning and it makes me wonder all over again about life and how short it is. That God has his timing for everything and that we're in his hands all the time. It makes me sad to realise that one day, we're not going to wake up and see our friends, see the people we joke, we laugh, we care about...

i pinch myself sometimes and i wonder if this is really happening to me. i feel blank. i can't get a thought across my head, it's like it didn't really happen. Like Mr Oen was not sitting in my lounge room two weeks ago, like i've never stayed at his house in Malaysia...i keep telling myself that it's not possible.
so many times this year...so many times...someone i knew who was a bushfire victim, my nextdoor neighbour, a friend's colleague, Mr Oen...God if you're trying to tell me life is short i got it. i got it. i got it. i got it.

But those questions that i ask you Lord, will you give me an answer?

What do you want me to do for you? I'll do it.

nida