Cracked it

Ok. There's only so much failure and stuff ups one can take/make. So many mistakes yesterday. Such that 3 mice had to die instead of just 1.

Trying to learn from them. But it seems at this rate, i'm just making more and more, wondering if by the time I actually stop practicing and get stuck into the real thing, i'm just totally shite at what i'm doing. Argh. Frustrating. The lack of free weekends is getting to me. The real hard work load hasn't even started yet and i've already cracked it, maxed out, hit a brick wall, reached a plateau in terms of wanting to work hard.

I am so over it. I'm hopping into that boat of being over it. Move over drew, i'm joining you.

On another note. I had a dream. It involved you again. Second time. Not good. Not good. I need to focus.

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