ok um.

andrew. sorry i did something wacky and the template has changed.
it was me, erm. SORRY!!
i wanted to change my own blog thingo...and clicked on the first one, didn't have my glasses on..
erm yeah.
green is...nice...sort of...:/

nida

I'm still learning the art of love...

I don't know how many more punches, stabs and slaps I can take. Love has no boundaries but when people put up a boundary then its even harder to love them back.

I live with this feeling for most of my life, God says to love our enemies, and it's not like I have any, I don't label people like that. In fact I don't even believe I count someone as my enemy although maybe I could seem like one to them. But let's stretch that definition of enemy... What about people who annoy you, who get on your nerves, people that you are intimidated by, you don't or are not quite sure how to love them... What about those people?

I feel that we should still live them... but then is the meaning of love the same as the romantic kind or the same as being nice?

I am a sucker for being nice, I can't find it in my heart not tocare about people, I know this annoys people sometimes coz I'm always wonderig how they are, are they alright...mm do they need an ear.

I really drive myself insane sometimes, I sit for a while and when it's all over, when people say to you that they press your wrong buttons, I sit and wonder... Why do I even bother?
And even so , when I question that, inside of me I still cannot bring myself to give up on showing more love and care the only way I know how. And maybe I think it's time to change my tactic...allow myself to be a bit more schemy...

Coz I'm still learning the art of love, I'm still trying to not mess up...

January 11th, 2010

Beijing architects HHD_FUN have completed a temporary office building in Binhai near Tianjin, China, which features a patterned metal skin enclosing verandas.

Called YJP Administrative Center, the building is covered in panels in twelve different shapes.

These are distributed across the surface according to how much light is required by each of the rooms behind.

Here’s some more text from HHD_FUN:

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YJP Administrative Center is a temporary building in Tianjin Binhai CBD.

Enclosed verandahs are arranged around the building to afford visual access to the CBD area from within the building.

This allows the occupants to survey the surrounding construction site.

The size of openings within the facade relates directly to the lighting requirements for particular activities within different areas of the building.

The porosity of the façade is designed to produce the required conditions for these activities.

The integration of the density of the patterned façade with the various inner functions forms a key focus of the project.

The façade apertures serve as view frames. Aperture size and orientation is varied in a continuous manner introducing topological difference across the façade.

The whole façade is constructed from six forms, reflected to give twelve types of identical components, making the building process highly efficient. This meant that the building to be constructed in less than seven months.

Email from nida 24.10.09

evening guys, BRACE YOURSELVES. this email will have lots of BITS and PIECES.

1. Firstly, who invented the phrase: TOO MUCH TO DO. secondly, who thought of the word: PROCRASTINATION ?!?!! I was browsing some pictures for "fun" and thought of you guys when i saw this picture everything leaves a mark. You're the SCAR-ERS that i believe can change a nation, move that mountain with God at your side.



You will be leaving awesome marks EVEYWHERE when you're walking with Jesus!!!

2. Out of curiousity i have STUDY BIBLE-ed UP what we looked at yesterday with Balaam and the confusing text.

http://www.biblegateway.com/ (is a great tool to look up verses where you know a few words but not sure where it is, or even want to read up some commentries, there are even bible plans - i.e. devotions)

Attached is an extract from Balaam's and demon possessed man's story. Sometimes these stories are a bit hard to understand why God would do something...etc. It's good to look up and seek some other explanations.

From my NIV study bible, it explained that Balaam's "real intentions were known to the Lord and so with severe displeasure He confronted the pagan prophet"
It mentioned that Balaam's was a SPECIALIST in animal divination (kinda like sensing from animals), but in this case when the donkey saw the angel and tried to get away from it, Balaam couldn't see what was causing the donkey trouble, rather just wanted to kill it!

Interesting characters. I liked it how it explained that although God tells us to do things or think about certain things....we do, we really try but sometime we just get led astray.

"The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it?"
Jeremiah 17:9

3. Get into YOUR SHAPE!!
I have attached the SHAPE survey carried out last night! It's in two files because i STILL DO NOT know how to use my scanner properly...it's a love hate relationship...honestly.

okay one thing i should point out is: i have misled you.
Whops. there are actually "GIFT" exampleson the bottom of the fist page, not "another question"

so use those words located on the bottom to help you answer questions 1 and 2. SO SORRY!

This survey is to assist me and you in finding out your gifts and how to best use them in our cell setting and youth. If able too, we will find a way to use it in church :)

SHAPE stands for: S- Spiritual Gifts, H- Heart, A- Abiliies, P- Personality, E-Experiences

*therefore those questions about [INDEPENDENT] and [DEPENDENT] is related to your personality and HOW YOU WORK WITH OTHERS.

MY BAD.

If you could find some time to fill out and pass to me anytime would be great. I already have Bell's and Elaine's (although guys if you wanna do it again after more thoughts, fine by me!!)

you can print out and fill it out or email ur answers, No worries!!! :) but please do fill it out.


4. Interesting sites you might want to visit!!! Have questions about Gods mysterious ways? just don't understand that one thing at the back of your mind? you might find a hint here. I hope to one day have a lesson where we open it to everyone to discuss issues that you've ALWAYS wondered. (one at a time eh).

http://www.carm.org/
http://www.gotquestions.org/


5. If you get to READ this far, congratulations!
you'll find out that NEXT FRIDAY we do not have a SCAR hangout. rather we will SHARE our SCAR space with many other bro's and sis's from church!!

It is a Ministry night, quite like the night where we prayed for each other and prophesized over each other. A time dedicated to hearing the word from the Lord and petitioning together as a family.

Persist. Pray. Praise. Powerful Powerful stuff.

I encourage you to come and join me and SHAKE this nation!!

So i now conclude my email. It's been a journey! shall see you folks tomorrow! :D
PUT some extra KICK in that studying!!! :D

nida

P.s. for those who went for the URBAN SEED outreach, we should share what we've learnt one of these days :)

A bit of a passing thought.

I get a lot of random thoughts when i'm on the train. I love trains. I love just staring out the window and seeing the sun rise, the trees blurring in front of my eyes, the graffiti on the walls screaming out SCAR (no, i have really seen them)...the bubble words, the notion of moving, the laughing and chatter on the train, the occasional blaring of music from random ipods, the staring and smiling, sunsets...the hugging of my belongings as i drift off to a snooze...always waking up before my stop...

The prophecy on sunday said that people will want to go back to their own homes as something terrible will happen to Australia.

The first thing i thought was...actually i'm not sure what was my first thought..but a lot of thoughts drifted through my mind...

'I have no where to go...Australia. Australia is my home'
'...i've been wondering when something was going to happen to us...'

and today it just popped in my mind...

'i wonder what it'll be..?..famine, no, it's gotta be a drought...we're already running low on water...earthquake?...no it's gotta be something we're not prepared for...something that people would run back home for...water. we don't have enough water...look at malaysia..they have heaps..'

'...if it's water...and everyone goes home...hang on, most of the people i know aren't from here...they call another place home...lets face it...i'll be one of few to be here still...'

'i feel a sense of belonging here...if anything happens in my land, this is MY home, a place where i call home, a place where i will never give up, so if there is a famine, if there is a drought, i'm gonna be here, i'm going to defend, i'm going to pray, i'm going to STICK till the end and be strong for others...'

and when i thought about all that...i thought...maybe, maybe that's why those people in the bushfires stuck to protecting their houses, it was theirs. It identified who they were, it was part of them, their house, their identity, their life. I always thought how silly they were.

But I began to feel a deep sense of understanding, that i have never felt before. a sense that i belong here, in my suburb, in my country and greater than that, i belong to God.

I'm not going to run away, even if i am alone till the end, i'm going to finish the race.


Acts 20:24
However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace.

Timothy 4:7
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.

This is my race. God's plan. My destiny.

[Anita]

BLoCk

I have a tad bit of writers block. I'm currently sick of looking at my thesis. Literally sick of looking at the bad introduction. Part of me wants to fix it up and make it brilliant. The other part of me cant be bothered. Writers block. Pfft.

bell

Well, i've officially moved out of this place. It had a nice kitchen.
My new place is just as nice. And so, it's time to organize a house-warming. Well, Richard volunteered help me organize that. N'drew

Ingenuity in our everyday items

Ingenuity in our everyday items












----came across these on my bro-in christ, the alphamale, life-impacter, lw's blog... N'drew

random thoughts the last few days

Wow the new blog colour. "doesn't matter if your black or white"
I don't feel so obliged to post emo now...the white give a ray of hope! :P

I wanna be somebody.

To learn the value of 7 years, ask Jacob.

Woken up by reality.

Another trip into E town.

GO the CATS! i love GEE-LONG. i am so loyal. not really...i don't know your names yet...

"Smile and wave boys, smile and wave"

Don't love yourself too much, love God.

Professional.

Another successful day.

"I've done 3 bindings today!!"

"Who wants to go to a farm with me? Let's find a chicken, pluck some feathers and go to the LAS VEGAS BALL!!"

...need to buy some bling.

want to SALE shopping. NO TIME! GAH

I love nandos.


Anita.

When God permits trials, He also provides comfort.

Everybody loves ramen

being random, as usual. N'drew

Bizarro comic

I always loved Bizarro comics. N'drew

1 Timothy 5: 1-2

Do not rebuke an older man harshly, but exhort him as if he were your father. Treat younger men as brothers, older women as mothers, and younger women as sisters, with absolute purity.

This is amazingly hard to do...

it's haunting me.

Perfect in Him.

In MPM (Match, Pledge, Marry)step class yesterday there we learnt that: "You know no one is perfect but God knows the perfect person for you. He alone knows who shall go the distance with you through your hardship and turbulence...."

Matthew 5:48 Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect.
(New King James Version)

ndrew pointed out the above verse!

i think this verse needs to be read in context drew, it says before that " if you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors going that? And if you greet only your brother, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore as your heavenly Father is perfect" Matt ch5v46-48(NIV)

It indicates that we should try and love those who even we don't love and be perfect in that way. God really sets up a high bar for us- perfection! we can't get there coz we ain't God, but we are to try and Beeee perfect! God has a HIGH standard for us- to love those who we don't love, to greet those we don't want to...love all!!!
we ain't perfect coz we sin, whole point that God sent His son to die on the cross for us.

so, in this way, we know that people ain't perfect, although we are to BE it (as much as possible) by not judging others :) another place it explains God's expectation for us is 1 Peter 1:16- "But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do. For it is written: Be holy because i am holy"

(the study bible is handy!!)

You could say it's debateable, i once met a guy who believed that we could live a sinless life- for the rest of our lives. That was an interesting saga...he believed that there was a higher status (than the rest of us), not sure how we could attain it but yup.

guess we wouldn't be trying so hard in life if we could be perfect perfect :)

Anita: testimony to share

Anita: Testimony To Share

After the exams last semester, i thought that i was going to fail one or two subjects...seriously.

last sem i was looking for a job, started looking after a cell without Marcus, did a lot of much mental thinking about rediculous stuff which i should have just handballed to God to look after and during exam time i had two people living in my room for two weeks (which meant that i had to sleep with shazza and sometimes mum) and at times study on the floor because of lack of space. Was VERY sick during the exam period--so much so that i thought i should get an exam exemption, being on antibiotics...
ugly period of time really...
ugly.

was mentally preparing myself (...as i have done countless times) on how to cope if i did fail.

But as always, God rescued me, as he always has!
Praise God i got a full time Job!! Praise God that i was healed of my sickness! Praise God i didn't get deathly sick enough that i had to apply for an exemption! and praise God for the marks i got on the exams.
They were my best ever. He always surprises me when i expect it the least!

And it's so rediculous that i thought that this was probably my most toughest semester but yet God already made that way for me. I could never see the light at the end, but God just always had it here--shining that torch down the end.

"You're always there to rescue me"

"Rescue me"- Planet Shakers

When im alone the world is such a different place
Sometimes its hard to keep the smile upon my face
It seems like I try so hard and still I let you down
Its taken so long but now theres one thing that Ive found

When everyting starts crashing down
When all I know falls to the ground
When darkness comes and I can't see
You're always there to rescue me

Just when I think that Ive got it figured out
You open my eyes and let me see that theres no doubt
But you've got it all within the power of your hand
It seems like the more I know the less I understand

When everyting starts crashing down
When all I know falls to the ground
When darkness comes and I can't see
You're always there to rescue me
When all my strength has turned to fear
When I wonder if you're near
When I dont know how to break free
You're always there to rescue me

I wonder if Ill make it through this darkest night
I need to know your strength in me gonna win this fight
Im reaching out wont you take my hand show me to the light
I know you're by my side

It seems like I try so hard and still I let you down
Its taken so long but now theres one thing that Ive found

When everyting starts crashing down
When all I know falls to the ground
When darkness comes and I can't see
You're always there to rescue me
When all my strength has turned to fear
When I wonder if you're near
When I dont know how to break free
You're always there to rescue me
You're always there to rescue me
You're always there to rescue me
You're always there to rescue me
You're always there to rescue me

God never EVER fails. I encourage you not to give up! you can lose everything, but do not lose your character or your faith!

He is there to rescue YOU!

Humility

Latin humilis (lowly, low to the ground), < humus (ground, dirt)]

I really need to be like dirt. To really humble myself and accept what God has for me. I know this feeling sux big time. But how am i supposed to see Your glory Lord, if i cannot be humble towards your people?

We 'Humble' ourselves, not pray to be humble. This is an act one needs to seek, lest God intervenes to humble us. Therefore, i need to humble myself.
Matt 5:23 - Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
James 4:6 - But God shows us even more kindness. Scripture says, "God opposes arrogant people, but he is kind to humble people."


N'drew

Help me heal this wound...






~JY~

bloggers...are back?

blogging...blogging..

anyways Uni has started again...just printed like 240 PAGES of a manual. *CRAZY STUFF!!*

but good news, atm i have tuesdays and thursdays off...until i start work anyways.
things will be LESS crazy for now...hopefully.

am reconstructing my room- probably not the best time...but really bothering me so gotta do it!

can't wait to get the whole group together agains!

love nida

Need sleep

Super duper tired.

Oral presentation in about 4 hours.

I can't wait for today to be overrrrr.

and tomoro too.

bell

in the wee hours of the night

in the wee hours of the night..
does anybody stay awake?
i forgot what it's like to sleep early?
holidays.
don't feel like them.
results.
don't want to know.
in the wee hours of the night...
does anybody hear?
oh Lord..what are you planning next?
everything, we will commit to your name.
Show us the way, Lord.
Coz we're free...
in your name, we are saved!

Hey joshie! really great to hear from you!! :) HAHAH they commented on your pimples? ...do you get more in Aust? i thought that when i was in malaysia they dissapeared coz of the heat! hehehe.
WOW you sound like you're really enjoying yourself dude!!
wow and a date with your g/f? tops! btw did everything go okay with the picking up from the airport? :D
Will keep you and Giang (last exam on Tues), Bell and her friendly mice in prayer man! take care and..we'll keep you updated about what's going on here...Oh. BGR tonight. hahaha....it'll be interesting....:)

lovesnida

Opened up theage.com and saw that u guys are suffering a 10.4C night..fufu. Poor you..

~the guy up north

ACK! MISTAKE! freaking cells!

CRAP ITTTTTTTT!!

bell

Indoland!

Folks, I made it safely back home!

Really sorry that it took me ages to blog..really, honestly.. My schedule 's been really packed.

And I'm enjoying myself!

I made it to the wedding in awesome shape! Met heaps of people I haven't met in ages..man, so fun.. The bridegroom (my youth leader) was thrilled that I could make it there. I took some pictures but my phone's out of battery (and since I bought it in oz, I need to get myself a electric plug converter before I could charge it again), but will definitely post em on facebook. And may be here, to make a definite contrast against the emo-ness. Lol.

People were commenting about: my pimples (of all things this came out most often :(( ), some thought that I slimmed down (:))) but some (my girl inclusive) thought that I fattened up! I myself agreed with the former (yeah, laugh...).

I'll let pictures speak a thousand words, soon..

Presently I'm not feeling well. I'm feeling nauseous, and is coughing a lot. Sad.. Please pray for me.

Can't believe that I'm here already! Several days ago I was shivering in my rented room, and now I'm enjoying a 30 degree sun in the place I call home! Feels like I've stepped through an inter-world portal or some sorts.. (can't help myself from reporting: I went on a date w/ Nyssa yesterday, can't believe it!).

Anyway, how'd exams and experiment and work went for everyone?

A fulfilling relationship is achieved by picking the right partner in the first place, rather than learning to deal with differences.

People are capable of change but our basic personalities remain relatively stable over time so that the people we are at 20 are very similar in some fundamental aspects to the people we are at 50.

BGR talk.

#penguin

Hohoho!

God is awesome. Everyday just keeping me on track and reminding me of whats important.

Slowwwly slowwwly..

Bell

tis the season to be jolly.....falalalala lalalala

how cool would it be if there was waterproof paper...then you could read in the shower. that's something to think about.

I wonder how the wedding was for Josh...he must be jolly falalalala lalalala...
exam free...

stress free...

at least study stress free...:)

I forgot being human came with emotions.

I've been a turtle for far too long.

Brainwashed and confused.

Lost and wandering.

It's time to be human again...

This is the right thing to do...right?

the joker strikes again

i love Bizarro comics. N'drew

why does exam period...have to be so emo

why does exam period...have to be so emo

it's been another day...might as well have made it a buffer day coz nothing got done...i still have so much to read...

i have one question for Him.

Maybe this is Why you placed me here...but i need Your strength to get through it. Coz i don't wanna be the middle person, i need direction.

Feed My Sheep

How coincedental. Just as we were talking about our love for God in cell.
This was today's QT material.

My Utmost For His Highest


Feed His Sheep, whether it's Pasta, Jap Curry, Fried Rice, Chocolate, Sweets, Mars Bars, Coffee, Tea, Bubble Tea, Malaysian Ringgit, or Cassette Tapes.

It's the small gestures. Have u sent ur sms today?

Net banking.

HATE IT.

bell

Bizarro Comic

i love bizarro comics. N'drew

friends, lovers or nothing

friends, lovers or nothing
we can really ever only be one
friends, lovers or nothing
dont you know we'll never be the inbetween, so give it up...

anything other than yes is no, anything other than stay is go, anything less than 'i love you' is lying..

And thats how the story goes folks.

giang

Anita: over and out

don't worry about the emoness drew. from what i can tell...you have ambition. It is something which i don't have. i mean of course i want to get somewhere i want to prove myself, but i don't know how and frankly i'm not passionate enough about accounting to take it up to another level. that's that. I admire your ability to set a goal and reach for it. compared to yours, my goals seem small, but this is my faith. That God would give me a goal that i would find worthwhile to work towards.
to tell you the truth, last night i was very emo as well...but i just didn't blog about it here. it must be a group thing. how are the mice coping bell? that is really sad to hear that 3 had to die...:( that's right, there is always a reason why things happen, and though i also question a lot of the things in my life right now, there is always the hope that it will work out. how do i know? you'll see.
it is times like these that we most need to stand strong. I hate 'you know who' and i'm not going to give up just so 'you know who' will be satisfied. So this boat, we're going to make it in a ship, coz through hail, rain or shine, we're in this together.

for the long run.

and we will find the faith to step on the water, to move forward. one day we'll look back at our penguin homes, we'll say, hah those were the times :)

nida

Chill

Now that i've officially submitted my application, i'm a little more relaxed.
Take it easy. Remember, remember... the word says "hosanna". So belle, i'm off the boat now..lol..

Yeah, for those who didn't understand the previous entry, it's alright. I'm applying to do exchange studies. I've submitted an application to New York. My university campus is near Central Park and Times Square. It's in Manhattan. how cool is that? Oh, and near the Empire State Building and Chrysler Building as well.


But yeah, i was really trying hard to produce my portfolio to be seductive. Or at least convincing. And writing a letter about my intention. Using the most quotes form other architects to support my interests. etc...

Was stressed. Mom called to ask if everything's okay. She questions me why i have to go for this exchange, and stress myself just like that. But yeah, it's now submitted. It's time to relax and concentrate on church basking on Sunday.

Somehow, there's something inside, which makes me so unsatisfied about the way things are. The way my life is. One night i just looked back, and realized that nothing is wrong, there's really alot going all out for you. Man, than what's really happening drew?


N'drew
P/s - sorry guys, for being so emo (;
you guys rock!

Cracked it

Ok. There's only so much failure and stuff ups one can take/make. So many mistakes yesterday. Such that 3 mice had to die instead of just 1.

Trying to learn from them. But it seems at this rate, i'm just making more and more, wondering if by the time I actually stop practicing and get stuck into the real thing, i'm just totally shite at what i'm doing. Argh. Frustrating. The lack of free weekends is getting to me. The real hard work load hasn't even started yet and i've already cracked it, maxed out, hit a brick wall, reached a plateau in terms of wanting to work hard.

I am so over it. I'm hopping into that boat of being over it. Move over drew, i'm joining you.

On another note. I had a dream. It involved you again. Second time. Not good. Not good. I need to focus.

bell

Over Everything


Haiz. It annoys me that when work and stress kicks in, my inner thoughts start going a little moody. I hate having this sudden surge of submissions. Sitting alone in the computer lab, when everyone else is having a good time celebrating. The problem is this, i am setting this standard on myself, trying to do it so that i could prove myself.

I must get to Chicago. I must get to New York. I am independant, i am a self-made man. This portfolio has to be award winning, this letter needs to be ultra-convincing. But here i am in this quiet lab, empty and useless. Feelings of this someone in my past life, getting stronger again. Just when i thought i have overcame, no i'm still thinking of you. Departing for Singapore tonight. Probably on the way to airport now ya? Is anyone fetching you?

Haiz. Lord, reign over everything. Everything.

You Reign

What could stand before You
As You chose to embrace
A cross so undeserved
You took for me?
The weight of sin upon You
When You offered Your life
As You walked the streets of men
With fading strength

How could we live but not see?
Your sacrifice
Your glory

You reign, You reign
Over everything Lord, You reign
With power, and justice divine
Over everything Lord, You reign

What was Your last thought
As You drew Your last breath?
Where the victory was Yours for us to see
And all will know the truth
As we live by Your grace
Every praise to You alone


You Reign

N'drew

From the diary of...

i like your pictures bell...they're nice. esp the one with you and Ed, you had nice long hair then!

I think i'm a penguin too...i was watching a tv show just before and was about some woman (she's pretty old) and she goes "the problem was i never looked for love, i assumed love would find me"

i thought about that for a while...perhaps that's what i'm doing (well not actively) but i mean i don't have this urge of a passion to go out and search for 'the one' or bank up a few names "for the long run"...i suppose i just trust that God has already picked out a good one, okay i rephrase that, the best one for me. and what i mean by that is that God has the best 'one' for everyone!

but it is an interesting thought...being a penguin would suggest that i'm waiting for someone...or something to return to me...but i'm not really waiting for that someone or something...i guess i never really thought about it. it's been too long since i last did anyways...

maybe we're all just crusing along or actively cruising along until it hits us in the face.

an interesting topic for which we seldom talk about.

ching chong examy tomorrow. ace it. might not beat the great kev though, he's a sturdy competition.

AJA AJA!!!

Mmmm kay....

Oki..I'm bored.

So here are some photos from various outings, holiday in brisbane, perth etc.

Grow, darn it, grow!!

My dish of cells aren't growing as fast as they're meant to. Which means yet another week of postponement. Strangely enough, I'm surprised that I'm not super upset. Cos me, being the planner and a stickler for sticking to schedules, this cell stuff has thrown me off by two weeks and which makes me a total of three weeks behind in my timeline which includes that first week where my animals weren't ordered. But as they say, if something doesn't go wrong in honours then there's something wrong. God is trying to teach me something and also in a way all this time in between treating the next group of animals there's a testimony in the making. Yes. God's peace is just there.

Chin up chin up chin up..~~~

Loves

Bell

I want to apologise for all the hurt i brought upon you

I want to admit that i was wrong in the things i did

Sometimes i wish i could take it all back and start over again with you...

I just want to say that im sorry..

I get lost on the boulevard at night
Without your voice to tell me I love you, take a right
the ten and the two is the loneliest sight

I had to let it out. Exam stress digs my head in but brings out the things i need to let go and surrender to God. For far too long my wings have been clipped. Just let go..

Thanksgiving

Crit turned out really good! Everyone in class received bad feedback, except me. Apparently God has been really showing favouritism towards me. All 5 tutors said they take their hat off to me, my tutor seconded that. In fact, after numerous praises, one of the tutors wanted to mention something bad about my scheme, but it turns out it's not even a bad flaw at all.
Not to mention, my tutor says that he can see great progress. He's been very pleased with everything i've done this semester. After class we all went for drinks. He told me that i've done well this semester.

Oh! And thanks to Belle and Josh for wishing me the best! It was very encouraging. I feel the love man!....

I know during Youth, there's this time where pple can give testimonies and all. But the thing is, God has been blessing me many times every week. If i were to testify, i think there's really alot i have to mention. On top of that, alot of things as well, in the past week. Not to mention my grandma receiving Christ, about 2 months back. Super happy that day. Was in tears...


There's really so much things i have to thank God for. One of it is favour. I dunno why he's showing it to me, i dun think i deserve it. But He gives it nevertheless.


The message on sunday reminded me these things about thanksgiving.

When you give thanks, you are also demonstrating Faith. What is ur motivation to give thanks? Romans 8:14... Giving thanks that God is in control, and sovereign.



N'drew

Anita: I will literally never cram for an exam again

I am tired of cramming.
and i'm very very sick. i can't even talk, my throat is calling me to eat honey...but it's already all gone! I hope i don't have the swine flue. I've infected shazza as well.
I was going to go to the doctor and ask him to sign me a medical certificate so i could what?...avoid the exam? what am i thinking...do the exam at a later date? hope they will give me better marks?
oh help me Lord...i can't think straight!
no i will just sit the exam, hopefully i won't infect other people as well.

the annoying thing is- i can't even find out if it's a hurdle requirement to pass the exam or not...shucks.

and i'm sick. i am never sick. i'm pretty sure this is a spiritual move from "you know who" and "you know who" needs to get another kick from me soon.


not cool.

nida

an emotional mess. not

i'm not a fan of swotvac. its the time of year that gets my head and heart racing in circles. emotions can easily entangle one's sense of rationale. sometimes i get caught up in the past and all the time memories are on repeat in my mind. i am trying to forget.
last night my jumper was dampened by a girl's tears... she just broke up with her 'girlfriend' and she needed company. i think im better at responding and giving the right amount of attention to girls... but thats beside the point. ;p i was reminded of the hurt of a break up and how unneccessary it is had only you got it right from the very beginning. i had dinner with a friend on monday and our views on relationships are completely different. she said i was in a bubble and that i was a penguin. a penguin, why? because penguins can wait for months on the ice shelf for their partner to return. i told her i believed in committment. love. forever. on the other hand, she said she would rather have a de facto relationship and told me 21-25 yr old is the prime to sleep around. so why is the divorce rate in australia at 60% i asked her? when your young its easy to say your having fun and to not take relationships seriously. however that mentality can carry on, past your youth and into your adult years.
anyways, im a penguin. what a interesting week! woo its time to study
this post sounded emotionally messy. im fine thanks ;p

Awesome possum

Possum. There is a possum in the student room. Running up and down between floors through the open panels that house the plumbing. I heard they don't attack people. Awesome.

I need a holiday.




bell

Spent

Exhausted. My brain is half caring half not wanting to.

I'm trying to look at the bigger picture cos at the end of the day, it doesn't really matter.

What merit does growing cells properly have on my eternity in heaven? Not alot. But whyyyy is it not workingggggg???

Focus~ focus~

bell

Anita:

There has been developments since this morning and now...
but first, I forgot to also thank you guys for praying for me as a cell with my job...it's really a blessing that i got it. There were so many variables and it was my lifeline but i am so thankful for it. God is really awesome!!

...there is also something else...Johnson's dad, Mr. Oen passed away this morning and it makes me wonder all over again about life and how short it is. That God has his timing for everything and that we're in his hands all the time. It makes me sad to realise that one day, we're not going to wake up and see our friends, see the people we joke, we laugh, we care about...

i pinch myself sometimes and i wonder if this is really happening to me. i feel blank. i can't get a thought across my head, it's like it didn't really happen. Like Mr Oen was not sitting in my lounge room two weeks ago, like i've never stayed at his house in Malaysia...i keep telling myself that it's not possible.
so many times this year...so many times...someone i knew who was a bushfire victim, my nextdoor neighbour, a friend's colleague, Mr Oen...God if you're trying to tell me life is short i got it. i got it. i got it. i got it.

But those questions that i ask you Lord, will you give me an answer?

What do you want me to do for you? I'll do it.

nida

Anita: Oh a blog! i heart blogs!

The first thing that came into my head:

I'm pregnant again. it's gotta be 3 months this time.

With exams around the corner and all, i just can't stop stuffing me face. I know i have OCD (obsessive compulsion disorder) and i'm a very impulsive person (I fit the profile of someone who would "supposedly" commit a crime...oh if only i was "male" too..it'd be perfect- you learn this in criminology theories).

Second thing:
man, it's 9:30 already? what happened to my grand plan to wake up at 7:30? oh yeah i know...i shut off the alarm, as you do, and did the "i'll get up in 5 minutes" thing...i may have thought at the time..."i thought i set it for 8:30?!?"
i tried to overachieve...yet again!

I also thought, man last night was really great! i absolutely LOVED the promo for the youth camp! so awesome. Deb, Josh and Shazza, such as AWESOMENESS team... deb was such a CRACKER man....imagine waiting for those seconds etc!!! BAHAHAH i would have LOVED to be there! ...dudes, that's called...acting, real acting! really pulled it off well man!!! the standard has been levelled up again!

I love the idea of a blog, as you know i tried to once pull that idea off with my fellow youth leaders. EPIC FAIL! although Matt did write a few posts....haha...i think it was too hardcore!

and just yesterday, i was thinking youth should have a journal...like you know we have events and someone could just write about what happened and how it turned out. Like the treasure hunt that Giang organised, that was EPIC WIN moment! so awesome.
seriously youth talent has been rocking my socks off for a while...just sometimes i've been to preoccupied to actually take in what's all been happening. oh yeah, it's a happening place here guys. It is.

Btw ndrew, this blog totally looks like a vampire is going to pop out anytime soon... the "links"...are really cool man!
is there a possibility to make the blog words a big bigger on the webpage?...for easier viewing :)

thanks man! EPIC chocolate is going to be the new phase...i can feel it!

ALL THE BEST FOR EXAM STUDYING! :D

loves nida

Andrew: The First Entry

As i'm writing this now, i'm thinking about how much potential our cell has. There's really alot to know about each other, andhow much more of this jpurney we have together.

Got me wondering, is friday nights and sunday just enough? There's really alot more to think about. Hmmm...

Maybe one day should get everyone over to my house and eat Laksa.

Oh, did i mention that Josh and Richard came over one time for Mee Rebus? Was quite a good time sharing about each other's burdens and having a bit of time away from exam studying. ANd of course most of the other time was spent transfering music from each other's hard disks... Joshua, next time u come over to my place, bring ur hard disk. And of course with movies in it as well...


So yeah, i'm so gonna invite SCAR over to my place again this holidays. So beware!


N'drew